God bless the Stars!!!

The stars… Have you ever been amazed and captivated by the beauty of the stars? Well… I have! As a matter of fact, I always look up to them with awe and amazement. There has never been a dull moment every time I gazed on them at nights. Somehow, they remind me of hope because I see brilliants of small lights thoroughly scattered in the darkness and whenever I see these little lights, I see each people as one of those lights sharing their hope amid the darkness of life. I associate them with my loved ones who are as many as their numbers who are ready to shed their light on me to give me hope. Somehow, this inspires me to imitate them, to be just like one of the stars up there and to be the one who is inspiring others in the simplest way that I can.

Thinking about this thought, I figured that the best way to shed light to others is through my writing.

I want my writing to be a beacon of hope to those who would read them. I want it to be just like one of those stars up there which never runs out of light in order to guide one who has lost his way and his hope.

I want my writing to be a giver of life which could push someone to soar to the sky and to reach out for the stars.

God bless the stars at night who constantly and undyingly shines to lighten up our darkness and to eliminate our shadows.

The reason behind green

“May Impyerno nga ba sa langit?” This was the starting line of a short story which I wrote as a requirement for my Filipino course. This story is about a boy named Tim who had lost his hope in life. Anyway, the story began in a point where Tim had decided to run away from his home because he just can’t stand his father uselessly wasting the family’s money in his vices while their family is being plunged into utter poverty. He also can’t stand the chaotic environment he is plunged into, a place where most people does not anymore believe in hope and salvation because of the distressful lives that they have and some how this has affected Tim’s perception of hope. Taking this question in his mind, Tim even tried to challenge God while he was running and searching for an alley in which he could just sit and cry out his pains. When he has finally found that place of refuge, he sank into sadness not minding his environment and even the rain that has been pouring. He stayed this way until he came across a person who changed his outlook in life. This person helped Tim to realize how beautiful life really is and how hope should always be kept in a person’s heart.

One of the memorable lines in their conversation was this “Mas magandang umasa ka sa wala kaysa sa wala kang asahan. Kasi kung umasa ka sa wala, yung wala maaari pang magkaroon ngunit kung wala ka namang pag-asa, wala ng mangyayari sa’yo. Wala na yun eh!” through this words, Tim was able to realize even in the last moment of his life the true essence of hope and the meaning of heaven. The story ended in a tragic manner. Tim died in the end because of the cold rain but before dying he realized something important, that was shown in his last words “Salamat kaibigan, nakita ko ang Diyos sa iyo. Kung may impyerno man sa langit ngunit katabi ko naman ang Diyos at ang lahat doon ay katulad mo, handa na kong pumunta doon ngayon, hindi na ko natatakot at nagdadalawang isip pa. Umaasa na ko…” (his last line somehow contains the message of the story, that is heaven can exist anywhere as long as you hope for it and you believe in it. Even if life could be hell sometimes, if you just look at it from a distance, it is already heaven.

When I asked others to read this story, I was overjoyed by the impact that it had with their lives. Especially when they told me that “Now I know what Hope is” Indeed, this story has met its purpose. It has brought hope to the one’s who would read it. And that is exactly the reason why I write. It is also the reason why I chose the name “Green Alley” for my column. I want my works to be beacons of hope to others, something which could inspire them to HOPE. Everyone who has known me knows that my favorite color is green. But they do not know is the reason why I like green and the impact that this color has in my life. For me green symbolizes Life, Hope as well as love. Whenever I see a brown tree grow green leaves, I see hope and believe that it could still happen even for the most succumb situations. Whenever I see a green tree standing tall and giving beauty and life to a barren place, I see the love of God present in that barren place. The reason why I always wear green is because I want to be a like a tree in a barren land. I want to give hope to the people around me.

Have you ever seen an alley? Its dark isn’t it and usually, everyone is afraid to stay there. But have you ever seen an alley with the greenery of tree? How does it look like? Isn’t it more pleasing to go to now? Somehow a dark alley contrasted with green makes it a more pleasing place to go to. Well that is exactly the way I want my writing to affect people. I want it to bring light to an already darkened place like an alley and make it into a pleasing place to live in like a “green alley”.

Piercing Pain

This pain inside is hurting me

It’s very unbearable and hard to bring

It swindles my heart and stabs its core

Until it bleeds of rains of blood

This pain inside is hurting me

ever so painful ever aching

Don’t know where it’s coming and when it’ll stop

it pricks harder each passing day.

This pain inside is hurting me

killing my heart and spilling it’s essence

taking everything away from me

even those who cares for me

This pain inside is hurting me

transforming to a malignant energy

hurting others to satisfy it’s pains

taking everything away from me

This pain inside is killing me

Oh when will it stop its painful pierces

it is devouring every essence in me

even those hard earned drops of meekness

This pain inside is killing me

Oh God, Oh God please make it stop

before it takes away everything from me

before it takes you away from me

This pain inside is killing me

My God please save me from this burden

I have suffered enough in bearing this

It has already taken everything from me

Oh God please remove this pain from me

And give me back the meekness of my heart

Restore my love for me and others

from everything that it has taken from me

“The Boy and the Rock”

Once there was a boy and his father. They lived in a very small land on top of a mountain. The boy is fond of playing. He has a small play ground outside their house. But within that ground lays a very big rock. That rock has not been a nuisance to him, until one day while he was playing; he bumped into the rock and got wounded. The wound left a scar in his knee. This made the boy very sad and ever since that day, the rock has always been a burden and an obstacle to his happiness. Then one day he thought of a plan to remove the rock. First he tried pushing the rock but it was too heavy for him. On the next day he tried using a piece of wood but it was still too heavy for him. Then finally he quit and went to a corner of their house and started to weep and cry. His father heard him, went to him and said “Son, why are you crying?” “Father it’s that rock, before I liked that rock and I didn’t mind it at all because it was not an obstacle for me but ever since I got this wound, it started to be a nuisance. I tried everything to remove it but none of my attempts worked.” said the boy. Then the father replied “Son are you sure you tried everything?” The boy replied “Yes father, I’m sure I tried everything.” Then the father said “You forgot one very important thing”. “What is that father?” the boy said. “You forgot to ask for my help” replied the father. Then the father continued talking and said “Always remember son, there are many things in this world that would interfere with us and when you think that you have done everything that you can “alone” and still nothing works, always remember that other people are there to help you. They were created by God to lighten your burdens and likewise we were also made by God to lighten the burdens of others because there is no person in this world who does not live to make life less difficult for others and if he does not live like that then he hardly lives for himself, always remember that my son. Then after that long talk, the father moved the rock easily and the boy finally got his peace and happiness.